Day 2.... Do starbucks Frap have sugar?

Starbucks Starbucks Starbucks Starbucks Starbucks Starbucks Starbucks Starbucks...STARBUCKS!!
Why!! I feel so deprived!! I know I caaaaan have starbucks but it has to be black.... and not frapped... and no whipped cream... What the Sh*t!
I felt fine all day, I packed myself a nice lunch since we had a potluck at work and a mandatory meeting during lunch. So I brought left overs from last night, rotisserie chicken and potatoes for lunch a naked juice for my first break, oranges for desert and a banana for my second break. I felt VERY full... the food was yummy.. No complaints, not until I went to target to pick up a few small things ($160 later, urgh I hate target) and watching half the store walking around with Venti Fraps. DON'T THEY KNOW I'M DOING THE WHOLE 30! Rudeness!
I was in kind of a rush this morning so I only had an apple sliced up and almond butter with some naked juice and a black coffee (sometimes you have to get past the taste to stay awake while putting your makeup on). Dinner was the real star of my day, I had a nice lamb shoulder slow cooking waiting for me when I got home. I baked a sweet potato, sliced it down the middle and side to side a few times put a little ghee, salt and pepper and some raw garlic spread (if you haven't tried this on your... well ANYTHING, run to whole foods and get it.)
My lamb I prepared last night, super easy simple recipe I got from Nom Nom Paleo's cook book. The recipe is called Kalua pork (No not the alcohol... I wish), I know I said I made lamb, I prepared it the same way just different protein. I placed full slices of bacon at the bottom of my crockpot, punctured the lamb a few times and added whole pieces of garlic to the punctured areas and sprinkled a very generous amount of Hawaiian Sea Salt all over the lamb, into every little nook and cranny of that bad boy. Massage it in and place the protein on the bacon in the crockpot. I cooked mine for about 16 hours on low, came out super juicy and delicious and crazy yummy. I shredded the lamb and placed in on top of my garlic smothered sweet potato. 
I continued by making asparagus, this is the easiest, fastest yummiest (that's totally a word)  way I've ever made asparagus. I've never really been a fan until I saw how Nom Nom Paleo does hers and I've been hooked ever since. Get a cast iron skillet nice and hot, add some ghee and let it melt, cut the ends off ur asparagus and run them under water to clean them off. Do not dry them off, shake them off a little but then add them to the now very hot ghee laced cast iron pan and try not to get burnt (you'll see). Add salt and pepper or which ever spice you would desire, leave the skillet on med to med/high and cover the asparagus. I usually check mine after about 3-4 minutes and toss them around, and cook for an other 2 minutes with an other toss and I continue to do that until they look like they are actually grilled. They get so dang yummy it's almost unfair, I've also done this with carrots, snow peas, it works every single time!

The food was not at all depriving today... not once did I wish I was eating something else, but going to target, walking near many... many aisles of naughty treats and chocolate and even something as simple as gum, it's very hard to not just have one... How can it hurt right? Which is usually the question I ask myself right before I typically shove something delicious in my face and Instantly regret my decision, so tonight I stayed on course. Instead of looking and envying all the people with their starbucks and yummy yummy treats, I reminded myself of how I am going to feel in 28 days from now, and how proud I'll be. But worse, how I would feel 10 minutes after I would have finished whatever goodness I would have succumb too. Temptation is everywhere! I now realize that it wasn't about me being stubborn and not wanting to eat veggies cause of lack of taste or flavor, it's the addiction to the sugar, the grease, the processed foods.... Because as I've mentioned many times... The food has been satisfying, didn't stop me from craving pizza or hotdogs after smelling something at work... and I work in a dental office soooo yea, I know that's weird.

Food to me is an attachment I have to emotions and vise versa. The best times I remember with some of my favorite people have been times enjoying a laugh over a meal or meeting friends at a restaurant. Cooking food with my girlfriends chatting about anything and everything. I associate happiness to eating and when I'm sad I eat even more to try and recover that happiness, even when it might happen that I am just in the mood for a certain food, the first thing I think of is the good times I had eating that food or being at that place those during those happy times. I need to cut the unhealthy emotional attachment I have to food. It's almost like I'm stuck in a bad relationship and not knowing it, I need out! Not to say I won't have good times over food again... even naughty food from time to time, after the 30 days of course, but I want to not feel like I need to find happiness at the bottom of a bag or a jar or a tub of anything. This 30 days will not only help me change my eating habits but I hope there is also some emotional growth that will happen as well. I hope that after the 30 days I won't feel like I NEED food to be happy... Maybe just the alcohol then :P